I have always, always, always been afraid of lots of things. Strange things. Things that, if I did, would hurt me in some form or another. The top two things that scared me the most was driving and changing my physical appearance.
What? A 22 year old that can't drive?! Yeah, I know, I know. But up until last year, I was pretty terrified of cars and the road and everything about being in a moving vehicle. It was a fear adopted from all the near accidents I have been in. My family, well, they're not terrible drivers, they're not not very careful. We all have ADD, and ADD while driving is not cool.
Anyway. The second thing I was scared of; Changing my physical appearance. I hated myself. From age 9 to age 20 I HATED how I looked, how I felt, and who I was. From age 12 to age 20 I self harmed, I self neglected, and I was a terrible person all around. From the time I was in 3rd grade, I was overweight and I have stayed overweight. I kept saying that I needed to lose weight. But I never tried my best. And when you don't put your whole heart into something, you don't really want it that badly.
Now, at age 22, I am currently working on getting my driver's license and saving up for a car. Something I NEVER imagined myself doing!
I am also working my butt off to get fit. I have sent 12 years feeling terrible about my looks and one year (2012) loving my body and not worrying about how I look.
Even though loving your body is a very good thing, it could also be dangerous. If you love how you look now, and you feed your body junk food, and you just get more and more unhealthy, it is not cool. And that is what I did. I fell in love with myself and didn't care what anyone thought of me (great!), but I kept "treating" myself to the things I love (chocolate, fastfood, doughnuts, candy, soda, etc) (bad!).
It was the end of December 2012 when I decided. "2013 WILL be different. 2013 not only will be GREAT it will also be AMAZING."
I have already lost 8 pounds and 2 inches.
I have small goals and one large goal.
I have a bunch of challenges I'm going to be doing.
I have been working out for at least 30 minutes every day. I workout before every shower, before work, at work, after work, and while watching tv.
I eat only healthy foods.
I stopped drinking soda, I'm cutting out fast food, I'm cutting out cake, and doughnuts, and candy.
I'm sleeping better, living better, and being better.
This year is a year of fearlessness.